Sometimes I feel like a nut, sometimes I don't!

You know, when I was younger I fancied myself as a great writer, or a missionary, someone with a direction, a purpose in life. It's funny how things change as you get older. My perspective has changed. I've learned who I am and I am satisfied with who I am. Does that sound stupid? I have diabetes. I take several pills a day plus 5 to 7 shots of insulin a day. I have high blood pressure. I take 5 pills for it. I no longer work outside of the home. I chase three little dogs all day, seeing to their needs and giving them all the attention that I can muster.
Lou (hubby) and I were going to the baptist church but neither of us were baptists and we were unhappy with the pastor. He was a very nice man but oh, so dry when he spoke. We would always walk out of church feeling a need for more of God's word. We finally quit going to church. Over a year passed when one day we decided to try another church, in fact over the next few weeks we tried several churches with no luck. What did God want from us? How could we give to Him when we weren't recieving any spiritual nourishment? My soul yearned for something to hang onto. I read the bible, I prayed, I stewed, I argued with God, and finallly, frustrated and sad, I just let go. One more church to try then I'd made up my mind I was done with it! That Sunday we visited the First Christian Church. I'd grown up in this church but had never even thought about returning there. As we walked into the foyer I was shocked at the people who remembered me. They smiled warmly, gave me a hug, shook Lou's hand and said they were so glad to have us there. We sat behind one of Lou's golfing buddies. It took me a few minutes to realize his buddy had once been our milk man! Boy! Memories of my childhood flooded my mind as I sat there shaking hands and smiling.
Pastor Dean gave us a warm welcome as did his wife Della. Finally he began his sermon, quoting bible verses and patiently waiting to everyone to find the bible passages. Lou and I were both excited. This was what we'd been looking for! Why didn't I think of it sooner? Looking back, I think the holy spirit was working with us all the time, preparing us for this church, this pastor, these wonderful people. Now I praise God for our church family. I have to say I've never met a more loving group of people. There is no back biting, no gossiping, no accusations, just love. Its a refreshing change from other churhes we attended. That's all I have to say at the moment. God is good and love abounds. Blessings to you.